The people who would have propped me up, fed me, helped with the children — my family and closest friends — could not get to me during lockdown.
They wept with me on the phone, but I woke up every day facing the fear and pain on my own.
I decided not to drink, knowing that it would make me sadder, but I also found it hard to eat.
Within weeks I had shed 20 pounds, the self I had come to know over two decades of pregnancies and family life.
His brother and sister also stopped communicating, saying that to support him, they could not be in contact with me.
Persons:
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Locations:
New York